BORN TO BE A STAR

when this blog thing was started i tht it was a waste of time. now look at me, im filling it in almost everyday. its the only way i can talk to u but u dont reply. like i have a choice.hey can u hear me sing the song "hear you me" almost everyday. it suits exactly the betrayal u did to me and to all.how does it feel up there. what happens to all the memories, do they wither away? are u asleep always or can u see everything without being able to talk to us. uve got me even more curious about death but dont worry i wont do anyhitng dumb, i wanna see my life through, i wanna see everyone happy again like u were here. are u seeing all this. pls tell me how does it feel after ur dead, pls tell me. maybe ill write it down as my next book. reply atleast once.......

ganesh

Raja,

Weak (Week) Days mean

For Applu & Ma
Saturday
Sonday
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday and
Doomsday
Applu……..minus 28 days

Bro,

i have nothing left to say. i talk to you everyday looking at the moon. you promised you will stay here with me always. i know you wont break your promise. its going to be a month and not one day has gone by without tears for you. every single day seems like an effort. i still look at the phone for your "good morning sis ma. love you" and "i cant go to sleep without you saying goodnight,sis." ma, no one can ever replace you. you were and will be my only bro.

love you,
sis constantine.

Born to be a Star

Hey my lovable Bro,
why did you do like this. .. . Any prob with me da. I knew that you liked me a lot.But only on 3rd nd 4th i came to know how much you love me through your friends.I will never forget the moments i shared with you . . . right from starting. . . motor cycle game, dark room, hide nd seek, the night chats ,cards, the farud we use to do while playing cards, dinner at GRT grand(OC soru),Cool Cats,pleasent eve in beach,bajji, your funny kiddings on me with your machan, the eve in sarang, the night we went to pickup akka in airport, that dubai joke,the eve we went to anna nagar, the messages we both were doing, your kiddings with that guy(....a)that night you asked me to stay but i was unlucky to do it da,the film s we went E 20 U18, thirupachi, ....your lovable wordings to me....." I love you sis ma", lovely
cousin, none of the bitch can before her(u told to ur friend priya)fav sis, . . . . will take me to h. . . ,d......., dhaba,the promises u made me. . will be with me till my marriage, abt that p...., nd abt v...., nd u told will were kappu even when u go to US . . . but now u removed it nah.....i pray to god you must come again in my life as my child..... i promise u will name my child as Ramesh...none knew how close we were da......
i miss you lot.........nd i love you da bro........plz come back again........ i know u will do it for me....(ur true on me will make you to do it)

with lots of luv

vidhya(sis ma)

sorry sorry its me again,
one mistake im changing the last point to Burke Johnson(1984- Forever) "BORN TO BE A STAR"....... Happy. Oh ya and by the way do u remeber that picture. echa kala naye that also u took cuz i forced u too ... tupid fellow....keep in touch ....

P.S :- my phone is breaking down. Can i take yours ???? pls pls pls pls. Just a few days before the promised date....Pls da maplai Pls pls pls.

keep in touch and im waiting for ur reply
ganesh

hi da maplai,
what no reply....guess what ive started writing the greatest book of my life. its called fist daughter's closet.its gonna be really big. ill send it to u once im done with it....but for now ill send a small part of it...chapter 5....isnt this how u felt in ur last moment. Sorry for taking some of your qualities but i had to :-) ....................... Burke always used to fascinated by death. He always wondered how it would feel once your dead. Would you be in an eternal slumber with dreams alone or not even that. Or would you be alive beside everybody without them being able to see along with all those dead before you. He was going to get answers to all his questions. Death was fast approaching. He looked back in time to search for any memories. He was an orphan who had never seen his parents. He had no happy family memories and was brought up in an orphanage. He brought himself up and the only thing he could remember about his childhood was his teacher’s face. There was nothing called happiness in his life other than Sara and it was fitting that her face would be the last he saw. He started getting fear that he was gonna die and never again see his beloved Sara and his best friend. He thought to himself, “its really cool, the human body. When it has life its able to create mountains and achieve wonders. But one small moment is enough to take the life away and make it a piece of junk that can’t do anything but create a foul smell. One small mistake in life is enough to cost you dear and give hand over to you the greatest punishment of not being able to see the world anymore.” There was no more pain. Now he could feel himself fade away. His eyes were slowly closing. Now finally the moments he spent with his few loved ones flashed before his eyes. In a fraction of a second he saw Sara grow up all over again. His final gaze fell on Sara before his eyes closed forever. Whoosh! Two aircrafts flew past. That was the last thing he heard. A waste of a good life. Born in a barn, he was found by some farmers along with the body of his mother. He lived off his own hard work and showed the world the power of determination. He didn’t have a wife nor kids. But he had one daughter…..Sara to whom he dedicated all his love to. He never experienced any pleasure in life other than bringing up his best friend’s daughter. He never experienced the feeling called love throughout his life but yet he achieved for the happiness of his parent’s spirit. Burke Johnson (1962- Forever) “BORN TO BE A STAR” …………………….



nice na...ill catch ya later.... bye
ganesh

Hi Ramesh.
You have born as twinkling star!
Grown as the full bright moon !
Showered love and affection like rain !
Disappeared like the passing clouds !
created sunami in all our hearts!
Caused an everlasting scar in Appulu's heart!
All of us will remember U till we meet U again!!!!
DHARMU MAMA.

If only,

Even if you coughed, my heart will bleed for you, then they why did you carry the pain in your heart, you know what I mean, don’t you, if only you had talked to me… You are a great guy, I am proud of you.

Applu ……minus 27 days

Hi Ma!!!

its me.... u know me!!! u are everything i ever dreamt of.... bout how a perfect humanbeing should be, how a son should be, how a brother should be, how a friend should be, not only that u also knew how perfectly u can be a true love!!! has anybody seen u so deep??? does anybody know u so well??? has anybody seen u smile, laugh, cry, being angry, being so patient, polit, kind, lovable.....the list can go on! i guess i have! thank u for being there when i needed u, thank u for all that uv given me!! but ma..... what do i give u in return??? y did u leave without askin me for anything at all?? but i guess i know what is it that u wud want from me? i will always live my life with a smile that expresses all the joy we've shared together, spend my time dreamin bout all the time we've been together n will Believe that ur always there beside me no matter wat!!! like uv always promised me!! thank u for being there my angel!! ma..... im missin u so much!!! im only prayin n hopin i see u soon! i know u have a lot've work to do there nd thats y u had to leave in a hurry but will surely wait for the day i get to see u n tell u how much iv been wanting all those times i spent with u. i really wish u u hear me now.....please come back as soon as possible! im so lost without u! Applu calls u 'RAJA' n u r indeed truly "THE KING OF ALL HUMAN HEARTS AND THE RULER OF LOVE ITSELF!!!"

ps: ma.... remember we saw the movie "a walk to remember"??? i just saw the movie again! missin u so much! please takecare jaan!


with all my love, urs n only urs...
snow white!!!

dearie Ramesh,
may i ask u two questions?
1. why did you leave such a wonderful home and a beautiful world?
2. wont you come back just for one purpose-your father wants to hear your voice-only once...
Shanthi

I am listening....

When you felt you hurt somebody or you made a mistake, you had the courage to apologise and say "Sorry". All the time I am listening to hear you say "Sorry" and for me to say it is ok da, so that you can be back and as usual I keep watching you and feel what a gift God gave me....

I am still listening..... Applu minus 26 days.

A shining lamp in the sky bright for just a moment and pressed in our heart forever.
We’ll meet again in a world where none will be ever parted, dear Ramesh.
Bruna and Alberto Trivellone, Italy.

Logic

Fundamental principle of the management is your return is directly proportionate to the risk you take. Higher the risk, higher the profit or loss, lower the risk, lower the profit or loss.

You took one risk and why our loss is the highest ?

No logic - Applu Minus 25 days.

"i didnt do it, it must have been saniyan". c'mon blame it on me again. i havent heard that sound in 27 days.i think its time i tell you the truth, i ate all three toblerones. is that why u got angry and left??? has there been a single day in my life in which i havent been called a echai kalai, now uve left me cry in ur memory and happiness in our family has become a distant hope. i hope ur happy now???how come u told all ur friends tat u liked me so much and never said a single word of affection to me???atleast now i have to tell u,"i know everything".there is nothing more to say, u urself should be knowing all the changes in my mind,heart,dreams and desires. hope ur happy, u had more than 1000 ppl crying for u on 3rd and 4th of march. and btw kalvanin kadhali was great movie u would have loved it. i know i promised to beat u in all aspects of life and break all the records that u set.but the boards didnt go off as i expected. because of what?? cuz of u ,u cheap selfish excuse of a brother.dont worry da ill beat u in life and achieve whatever u aspired to do. i know its hard but ill give it my best go. just give me courage and focus to take care of everybody.........ill get back to u later.

ganesh(echakala)

Born to be a Star
Its one big shock of lifetime..still cant believe that he is not there..
To me he has gone for his higher studies to US like he always wanted..

More than a cousin, Ramesh was like a younger brother to me.
I think thats how we have treated each other.
From giving advices on what should he take as his profession
to taking advice on what kind of guy would fit me..
i think we have disucssed so many weird and not so weird stuff.
The late night chats, dhayam, beach bajis, kutthu, ajith-vijay fight..all these
petty memories will now be preserved..
It was so much fun and so much meaningful having him around..
He was one affectionate kid whose presence will be missed all throughout.

Miss u a lot da..

luv,
Nithya Akka.

The changes

I disliked you or Ganesh or Ma to wear black dress, today I wear only black
I never moved out of the house without shaving, today I have a beard
I abhor sympathy, today everybody sympathize for me
I walked only in the terrace, now I walk only in the beach
I never wear chappals to office, today I wear chappals all the time

Likes and dislikes, no more da

Applu Minus 23 days

Raja,

Nothing is still in the world,

Earth rotates all the time and circling the Sun all the time,
Air never stops moving,
Waves never stop moving,

But on 3rd March, my life stopped moving forever, when your heart became still.

Counting my days….applu.

For the world it was an accident,
For others, you will be a sweet memory,
For your dear friends, you will be a star,
For your patti, you are an agony
For your brother, you are his inspiration,
For Applu and Ma, you are the rest of their life,

I await my moment…..Applu

  

Raja,

Since the day you were born, I did whatever you asked me and allowed you to do whatever you want and what you believe as right. Only thing I asked you is not to have a beard without moustache. But I made a request to you, day in, day out, not to drive a two wheeler.

Why da ?, the only request of mine in your life, you did not listen

Applu.