BORN TO BE A STAR

Hi Raja

There is a beleif, early morning dreams come true. I saw you to day in my dreams at 5.25 a.m. You were sleeping and I saw you sitting next to you for a few minutes. I knew you will not wake up, but I was very happy to see you. When I woke up, for the first time, since you left me, I felt happy with your memory instead of the deep agony which used to cut through my heart. Of course there were tears, not in regret but for missing you.

You may be a frozen memory in other's heart, but you live in our heart. I still hold the hope, I will definitely meet you and be with you. Where, how I don't know, but I will, surely.

Applu

Raja

This day, this time you said bye to me. You never came back home. From the moment I received the phone call from Ma, this day, for me and ma life has changed for ever.

Why us ?

Every day I have been searching for the answer everywhere.

Nobody knows.

My hopes, faith, belief, confidence, contentment, strength, trust, self esteem, my ego, my identity, everything has vanished. My faith and trust in Almighty is gone and I only fear The Almighty now.

I have no answer; I don’t know what to do except to cry, because I feel helpless.

Why must I grieve silently,
When my heart is so loudly screaming?
The emptiness I feel is consuming me,
Oh God, how I wish I were dreaming.
The silence around me is deafening,
For nobody knows what to say,
To comfort this agony I'm feeling,
Since you went away.
And each day the sun continues to rise,
And the earth is still turning,
Though my world has come to a screeching halt,
No one can ease my yearning.
For a part of me has vanished,
And a part of my heart has died,
And no one can hear my heartache,
Or feel the turmoil I carry inside.
And I'll go on grieving silently,
And exist on a different plane,
And I'll keep my love for you deep in my heart,
Until we see each other again.

My broken heart still beats because you are always there.

Touch me please, so that at least I can keep my sanity for the sake of Ma and Gani.

Applu